Have you ever suffered from insomnia? Not just a few hours here and there or a couple nights of poor sleep. But days and months on end? I have. It’s brutal. You feel like you’d try anything just to bring back sanity to your poor fatigued body and your exhausted mind! I was in such a desperate state when I wrote this. At one point I had slept 7 hours in 14 days! I’m sorry if this is your struggle! May God have mercy and give you rest. Here’s the poem. Enjoy!
Dear God, You Have My Attention by Laurie Krawchuk
Set me free from the state I’m in This ball and chain, weight of sin My thoughts and time do not include You They take away from the one I once knew They take Your place, I’ve given it to another They are my idols, they are my brother They hold me down, I run in place Getting no where I am a disgrace I’m trying hard to do the right thing But on my own its all in vain I’m tired of being tired, I’m tired of the chase I’m tired of thinking, obsessing over a crooked race I got wrapped up in a gamble deception at best My mind got twisted and my body unrest I believed in the things of this world more than You They controlled my thoughts and what I chose to do I believed they could heal and they had the power I planned and I researched by days on the hour I have more plans and notes and such Than any other thing I’ve never given to so much I justified why this was the way It was for my family, for me, and for You I would say It was about preparing myself to be whole To be strong and healthy and to be used for Your goal As if You needed another to prepare As if Your not capable to equip every hair I sought elsewhere for the way to purity It left me tired, worn-out, running on empty I got up this morning not more than an hour of sleep I broke down in tears at the hours I keep My body was dragging filled with fear I don’t want to be here again, get me out of here My husband assured me it will all be ok I ask him to ask God and go and pray For an answer to my sleepless nights It will be in His power not with my might ok I give I can’t do this anymore I give up, I’m done help me find the door What is it, God speak to me, what do I do? Tell me, show me, tell me what’s true! I don’t know and I don’t want to guess, That’s what started this whole big mess I can see on me I cannot rely It’s a job for the one they call God Most High He’s up in the sky Who the Bible is by The one who did die For the gal and the guy For your family and my He does not lie It’s important that you know why Don’t give up with a sigh Go to church, put on a tie …Or not Just go Believe in the one Who gave His only Son To pay for our sins To free us – Amen We are one with this world, but that’s not the eternal plan It’s to be one with God saved by God as man Man in the flesh, perfect and holy Loving, Giving, healing, full of mercy He hung on a cross, which sounds sick and twisted But it was the only freedom for my brother and sista To live a life free from sin No matter their circumstance or where they’ve been I know it’s hard to understand and comprehend God gave you a Savior just accept it- Amen Our minds do not interpret and think naturally like Him But the Holy Spirit can decipher and give us books like “Tim” If we’ll only get past our selfish ways Be at the end of ourself and owner of our days Turn to Him in desperation, genuine in attitude He promises life and hope in beatitude I’m here, please let this be the end of me I’m tired of the battle with the one that be The authority I get on my knee Now I see It’s not about me, for me, or from me It doesn’t happen because of me, but in spite of me LORD, pleeeeeeaaaaaseeee deliver me!!!!!!!! Not like the Domino pizza guy Who charges a fee You only end up in captivity and thirsty …for more, when he leaves your door you call back for another order ENOUGH, ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!! …of that stuff that leaves you empty and sick wanting more all the time to the DR. quick! We like an easy way out, a quick fix to be sure No pain, no hardship, nothing to endure We point and we blame, it’s not my fault we say We look at our neighbor, they’re doing it-it must be ok But God didn’t make us ALL the exact same The Bible says He knows us, and calls us EACH by NAME What works for another, may not work for a brother’ But wait that’s not right- that’s only for pills, remedies and such The one that works for ALL is called JESUS Help me Jesus, I want to be done Done with this sin, please help me overcome Set me free from the evil powers that be The one who lies, kills, and destroys no light do they see Once and for all, all at once you gave life Forgave all us sinners offered mercy and now I am a wife A mother- so blessed by You A sister in the church and the good things You do I should have never seen these days, but You gave me Your ways Opened my eyes And called me to be Your child, Now I’m reconciled To the one I call Father, he’s adopted me it’s true And He offered it to my family and friends and even you Join me in a freedom that only comes from ONE You can’t buy it, or make it, or eat it in a bun Ask God for deliverance from the struggles of your life Say yes to Him and end this strife To big it seems, but not for Him Trust him what do you have to lose, but guilt and sin Where ya been???? Doesn’t matter, as a matter of fact He wipes your slate clean, He’s got your back What are you waiting for…nothing you say? I’m telling YOU today is YOUR DAY!!!!!! Join the family, we’d love to have you We’ve been waiting for so long just for you too As she approached the throne on her living room floor Tears flowed down her face just once more Without a doubt, she got to her knees To ask for deliverance, and do as He please He freed her from the sin that had her by the throat She went to the computer and this is what she wrote. This is to all of you who are entangled by sin. May this poem give you hope, and help you remember where you’ve been, that is remember where you came from; a God who loves you and answers impossible prayers with gentleness and love, not condemnation He declares. Go to Him don’t turn back, your plea is not hopeless. It’s the perfect time, the perfect place, the perfect way to be blessed by a God who loves you, created you for His great purpose. No mountain too high. No valley too low. Go! Much Love, Laurie
