Seasons Of My Heart by Laurie Krawchuk
Heart of YEARNING…
LORD let mypassion be for you. May I wake up to birds chirping, and the morning sun you bring forth; glowing on my face, I am alive! May I feel the breeze as it gently blows my hair and breathe in the freshness of a new dawn. May my heart be filled with anticipation of a great day, full of wonderful possibilities and opportunities that await us. As I get up a smile presses through; I can’t contain the joy overflowing from my heart. I have something special. I know something special. I know someone special and I’m giddy in love. The crisp clean water splashes against my skin; I feel refreshed and new. My hair shines, my face is beaming, my skin is soft and warm. I look in the mirror and think to myself; this is going to be a great day!!!
I think about you all the time. I doodle your name while I’m still. I can’t wait to see you again…to hear to your voice…to know you more…to feel your presence. You share your innermost thoughts with me. We are intimate. When we have a date You show up early and save me a seat. You bring the conversation piece and I bring the snacks. We snuggle together in a plush blanket, in front of the fire with a cup of hot tea and cookies. We never run out of things to talk about. I am always intrigued and amazed by You. Your perspective fascinates me. Your wisdom is incomparable. Your faithfulness embraces me in blessed assurance. I cherish the time we spend together. I am yours; You are mine. Time passes so quickly. We laugh and cry. You inspire me to reach my greatest potential. You are with me, to see me through. I treasure these moments.
You love me the way I am. You ask me to be Yours forever and You mean it!!! You think I am beautiful. There is not one secret that I have kept from You; every part of me you know; and still You adore me. When I think of us; my dreams cannot be contained; we will conquer the world together! When I’m out people look at me funny; like I’m a crazy love-struck teenager; they don’t understand. I just laugh and skip along to my car.
When I am with you I feel safe. I am secure in your powerful arms. I am content and completely satisfied to be with you. I am confident in your power and love; I do not worry or fear. You make me whole, and I am at peace. I am enough. I am good enough. I am strong with You. I can love with You. I can do anything with You.
You always bring me good. Your blessings humble my heart. You love to surprise me. There is never a dull moment! We are always together on an exciting journey or adventure of some kind. I’m always making new friends and loving on old friends with You. I’m never alone. I don’t feel lonely. You encourage me along the way when I need it most. I fall and you give me a hand up. You are my comfort and my rock. I love going places with You; I never get lost, and You’re always good company. When I am indecisive You are there to give me guidance. When I have trouble; You give me a listening ear. You know my sadness, you feel my pain. You hug me and tell me everything will be ok. I trust You. You are faithful. Your Word is true. I believe You. Your promises do not disappoint. In my joy I praise You. In my suffering I worship You. In my need I pray to You. You answer me. In my failures; You don’t give up on me. In my shortcomings; You don’t abandon me. In my imperfections; You don’t reject me. I am completely and utterly Your beloved. My wrong-doings You do not hold over me; You love me anyway. When others have let me down, You pick me up. When I am discouraged with myself, You give me hope. When I can’t count on anyone, You are faithful. When all seems lost; I have not lost You.
Heart of PURPOSE…
Your purposes are my heart’s desire. I stand firm. My heart is heavy for those around me; their situations seem overwhelming, yet You assure me that You have them in Your hand. They are not my responsibility; you say, but prayers are much needed. I pray and you give me peace. I surrender myself and You set me free. You have filled my heart with compassion for those who are difficult to love. They see You in me. They yearn for Your ways. Seeds are planted.
Your purposes are my heart’s desire. I stand firm. I am wronged, my kids are mistreated. Be still my heart; Your Words come to mind…“Father forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.” You give me peace. Your mercy and grace flow through my veins. I am free.
Your purposes are my heart’s desire. I stand firm. My struggles You use to spread Your message. I was rejected; You redeemed me. I was used; You renewed me. I was lost; You found me. I was alone; You gave me a friend. I felt unloved; You showed me love. I was sick; You brought me an angel. I was childless; You brought me children. I was in need; You brought me a caregiver. I was in battle; You gave me peace. I lost a child; I did not fear. I offered my body; You were faithful to another.
Heart of THANKFULNESS…
I see homeless; Lord thank you for our home. I see childless; Lord thank you for my children. I see an abusive husband; Lord thank you for a godly husband. I see the hungry; Lord thank you for our food. I see disrespectful children; thank you for my obedient children. I see people who are empty and hostile; thank you Lord for choosing me and my family to be Your children. I see the diseased and dirty; Lord thank you for our clean water.
Why have you blessed me so? Why me and not another? I am on top of the world shouting from the rooftops; Great is the name of the LORD!
Heart of DESPERATION…
I can’t breathe. Gasping for air. Drowning without…You. I need you now in this moment. You are the blood in my veins. You are the beat of my heart. The thought of life without You is misery. I want to run from the shallowness of this world; the trivial, meaningless, superficial, pointless, what a waste of time. Why would I participate in such things? Makes me sick. I want to throw it up. Purge this destruction; leave this death behind. Lord, give me strength to die to self. Lord, focus my eyes upon You. Turn my head away from destruction; lead me to Your lair. Close my eyes from vile images, muffle my ears from toxic noise, guard my thoughts from the poison that lurks; the threats to kill, steal, and destroy. Lord, hold my hand, carry me through, hold me tight, pat my back, and wipe away my tears. Meet with me in my darkness. Whisper in my ear. Light the way. Speak to me in my hardship. I am desperate to be close to You. I am dying to know Your ways. Lord, give me understanding in my confusion. Compassion in my anger. Your Words are life to me. Like a vine I grow new leaves. I have a chance to flourish; to aim for the ‘Son’. I am forever grateful. I live to see another day! In the valley I have been. Through the muck I have trudged. In the isolation of my sin; You did not leave me. In the desolation of my heart; You came close. I am living proof of Your mercy and grace. You are faithful. Your love endures forever.
Hope-fully In Christ,
Laurie
